learning

Oh the famous line, I never thought i would be doing this. My name is Meredith, and I just got out of the hospital after being diagnosed with RSD, and understanding,learning, and i think more importantly accepting has been the hardest.The fact that doctors are still trying to completley understand the "disorder", "disease" what the hell do you call it, there is still a lot of fear for I certainly never thought I would ever have something limit me. I say that, but will never act on that, I want to make very clear that nothing could ever limit me,and my dreams,and everything I have been working so hard for. I would also like to state I need a creative way to get some of this out ,and I figure if there is someone out there like me what could it hurt to make a connection. I tend to lean on sarcasim,I have my whole life,and I for one think its wonderful,and also believe you need a sense of humor in this world we live,especially when your thrown such a curve ball. I believe my positive attitude and sense of humor will make some of my not so fun days a little brighter. Like I said before Im new to this,and know for sure the amount of layers dealing with this"disorder", Ill admit Im chipping away at it because Im not ready to see all that is related to RSD. All I know is I just spent 6 days in the hospital,been home for 5, and have been trying to register why my body feels like I was in a car accident,and why my legs feel like their hanging over a bon fire,and there hasnt been an amount of drugs to take it all away.I guess patience is key in the beginning since there feels like a new symptom everyday you try to learn what drug/therapy regiment will work for you.I will be reading,studying,and truley try to understand what this is doing to me,and I know through time i will, because i dont give up easy.I will say this for a fact, if your blessed to have a supporting,loving,unbelievable family like i do then you are blessed,because out of all this pain, my assurance of a remission feels real because of the wonderful love of my family that God has blessed me with.