TRUTH AND HEALING

I HAVE BEEN DIAGNOSED WITH RSD (REFLEX SYMPATHETIC DYSTROPHY) ON FEB 19TH 2011, I WILL NEVER FORGET THAT DAY AS LONG AS I LIVE.ONE OF THE REASONS THAT I NAMED THIS TRUTH AND HEALING IS BECAUSE I MADE MY CLOSEST FAMILY, AND WHEN I SAY THAT I INCLUDE MY BEST FRIEND KERI AND MANDY, OF COURSE MY FAMILY KNEW BECAUSE WITH HORROR IN MY HEART ALTHOUGH THEY DONT FEEL THE CANCER TYPE PAIN THEY HAVE BEEN THROUGH THERE OWN PERSONAL HELL. PRIDE IS A HELL OF A THING, AND MY CLOSEST FRIENDS AND JUST PEOPLE WHO KNOW ME KNOW THAT I LIVE LIFE TO THE FULLEST AND WANT TO DIE WITH NO REGRETS. FOR SOME REASON I WOULD JUST BEG THEM NOT TO TELL ANYONE, I GUESS I WASNT READY I GUESS MY PRIDE WAS TOO STRONG, REGUARDLESS IT WAS STUPID. I SAY THAT BECAUSE RSD IS ONE OF THE WORST DISABILTIES YOU CAN HAVE, THERE ARE THREE STAGES AND LISTEN VERY CARFULLY WHEN I TELL YOU STAGE 3 WILL NOT HAPPEN TO ME, I WONT ALLOW IT. UNFORTUNATLY THERE IS NO CURE, FORTUNATLY THERE IS REMISSION.THERE IS ENOUGH TIME IN THE DAY TO EXPLAIN THE AMOUNT OF DOCTORS, TREATMENTS, PROCEDURES,BUT LET ME TELL YOU THE SECOND I AM IN REMISSSION I WILL BE THE SPOKES PERSON FOR RSD AND TRY AND MAKE SURE NO ONE HAS TO EXPERIENCE WHAT ME AND MY FAMILY HAVE GONE THROUGH. TOMORROW I GO TO CLEVELAND CLINIC AGAIN AND PRAY THINGS WORK THIS TIME ALTHOUGH IM CERTAINLY USE TO KETAMINE TREATMENTS THIS WOULD BE A 5 DAY KETAMINE TREATMENT EXSTENSIVE THERAPY AND MEDICINCE TO HOPEFULLY REMIND MY BODY ISNT ON FIRE. ALL OF THIS STARTED FROM ORTHOSCOPIC SURGERY AND SPREAD TO MY FEET KNOW ITS SPREADING TO MY THIGH AND HIP AND UP MY BACK. PLEASE BELIEVE ME IM WRITING THIS TO MAKE PEOPLE AWARE OF THIS UNBELIEVALY HORRIBLE DISABILTY (YOU HAVE NO IDEA HOW LONG IT TOOK ME TO USE THE D WORD. BELIEVE ME I NEVER EXPECTED TO HAVE HOME HEATH CARE, HOSPITAL BED, CANE WALKER, AND NOW MY MAIN TRANSPORTATION A WHEELCHAIR. I TAKE SO MANY PILLS YOU PROBABLY WOULDNT BELIEVE UNLESS YOU SAW, AND MOST OF THOSE PILLS CAN MAKE YOU GAIN UP TO 50LBS AND ANOTHER 40LBS, OHHHHHH HOW MY DR GOT AN EARFUL FOR NOT WARNING ME OF THAT. ANYWAY YES IM VERY VERY OUT SPOKEN IM THE FIRST TO GRAB A MICROPHONE OR DANCE ON A TABLE, BUT BELIEVE ME WHEN I TELL YOU SHARING MY PERSONAL BUSINESS IS AND HAS ALWAYS BEEN NOT SO MUCH A FEAR, BUT NEVER LIKED. IVE DECIDED TO SHARE THIS AND BE COMPLETLY VULNERABLE BECAUSE THIS CAUSE MEANS THAT MUCH TO ME. PLEASE PLEASE RESEARCH THIS YOU WOULDNT BELIEVE HOW EASY IT COULD HAPPEN TO YOU, THE SIMPLIST SURGERY. IM CERTAINLY NOT TRYING TO SCARE ANYONE JUST INFORM. IVE BEEN PRETTY BAD AT KEEPING UP WITH MY BLOG, TO BE HONEST I HAD MY LAPTOP EVERYTIME I WAS IN THE HOSPITAL AND IM TALKING 7-8 DAYS AT A TIME, I GUESS I WASNT READY. ON A SPECIAL NOT I COULD REALLY USE ALL YOUR PRAYERS, I WANT THE OPPURTUNITY TO GET MARRIED TO SCOTTY AND HAVE A FAMILY AND EVRYONE THAT KNOWS ME I HAVE A LOT POWERFUL GREAT THINGS TO DO STILL!!!! GOD BLESS YOU GUESS AND THANK YOU FOR LISTENING, DO ME ANOTHER FAVOR AND BE GOOD TO ONE ANOTHER, I KNOW THERE ARE A LOT OF UGLY THINGS GOING ON IN THE WORLD, BUT YOU WOULDNT BELIEVE WHAT JUST A SMILE COULD DO TO SOMEONES DAY. TAKE CARE AND MANY BLESSINGS, MER