ITS MY BIRTHDAY!!

IM GOING TO TRY TO KEEP THIS SHORT, EVEN THOUGH THIS BLOGGING THING HAS BEEN NOTHING BUT HEALING AND POSITIVE, ITS TOO EARLY IN THE MORNING FOR SOO MUCH EMOTION......DID THAT EVEN MAKE SENSE?... ANYWAY THE BIG 33 TODAY , ITS FUNNY EVER SINCE I WAS A KID I ALWAYS WANTED TO TURN 33, FOR SOME REASON THAT SEEMED LIKE THE BEST AGE. ALTHOUGH 333 IS MY NUMBER I DONT THINK THERE WAS ANY CONNECTION AT SUCH A YOUNG AGE, JUST SIMPLY COULDNT WAIT TO TURN 33. I CAN SIT HERE AND SAY OHHH WOW WHOO KNEW IT WOULD BE THIS GREAT, CANT WORK , CANT LIVE, AND IN PAIN ALL DAY, BUT I REFUSE TO EVEN ALLOW MY BRAIN TO THINK THAT WAY. I HAD MY FIRST PT SESSION YESTERDAY AND I PROMISED MY THERAPIST I WOULD ONLY STAND AT MINS AT A TIME NOT EXCEEDING 8 MIN AND PROMISING TO SIT EVEN IF IT TOO HARD AFTER 30 SEC,,REGUARDLESS OF HOW HARD IT IS TO EVEN SAY THAT ALOUD, I PROMISE NOT TO VENTURE DOWN THAT NEGATIVE ROAD. WHAT I DO THINK IS THIS IS POSSIBLY ANOTHER EYE OPENER MAYBE ALL THE PASSION I FEEL INSIDE, ALL OF THE EXTREME ANXIETY AND FEELINGS I GET TO BECOME SOMETHING GREAT AND DO WONDERUL THINGS IS IN CORALATION TO THIS. MAYBE I WAS DOWN THE WRONG PATH, OR MAYBE I HAD TO GO DOWN THAT PATHTO LEARN ABOUT BUSINESS AND PEOPLE TO EXCELL IN MY FUTURE ENDEAVORS. I HAVE ALWAYS LOVED THE CHALLENGE OF BUSSINESS EVERYTHING ABOUT IT, THE PRESENTATIONS, THE MEETINGS, THE SELLING, ETC, BUT I HAVE ALWAYS WANTED TO HELP PEOPLE, I ALWAYS HAD MORE OF AN INTEREST AND PASSION TO HELP PEOPLE, BUT NEVER KNEW HOW TO TIE IT TOGETHER. ONE THING I LOVED ABOUT OWNING THE BAR WAS I WAS ABLE TO ACHIEVE BOTH BY HOSTING CHARITY EVENTS AND BEING A PART OF ANY COMMUNITY OUTREACH I COULD BE A PART OF. BUT NOW WHAT..... WHAT IS ALL OF THIS FOR? I GUESS THAT IS WHAT IS SO VERY EXCITING ABOUT LIFE JUST WHEN YOU THINK YOU HV IT FIGURED OUT GOD SHAKES IT ALL UP AGAIN BECAUSE LIFE IS ALWAYS ABOUT A STATE OF LEARNING. SO GOD I PROMISE TO STAY POSITIVE, AND FOLLOW ALL MEDICAL RULES, AND CONTINUE TO BE OPEN TO YOUR WORDS, JUST PLEASE BE CLEAR ON WHAT IT IS IM SUPPOSE TO DO WITH ALL OF THIS AND I PROMISE TO SUCCEED AND EXCEL IN WHATEVER YOU THROW MY WAY.  ONCE AGAIN ANOTHER RAMBLE SESSION COMPLETED, IT FEELS GOOD!!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY FELLOW PICSES MAY ALL YOUR WISHES COME TRUE!