A GOOD DAY

YESTERDAY WAS FULL OF EMOTIONS AND PAIN, I COULDNT SEEM TO GET COMFORTABLE, AND MY MENTAL STATE WAS A LITTLE UNSTABLE. THE FOLDERS OF MEDICAL APPLICATIONS AND FORMS AND BILLS WERE PILEING UP AND MAKING ME NOT THINK CLEAR. TO DAY WAS BETTER I FINISHED ALL MY FORMS AND GOT THE CORRECT INFO AND HELPFUL GUIDANCE FROM SUCH WONDERFUL PEOPLE ACTING AS A REP FOR ME. ALL THIS IS HARD FOR ME TO ACCEPT, ASKING FOR HELP HAS ALWAYS BEEN SUCH A STRUGGLE, ACCEPTING IT ANOTHER BALL GAME. ALTHOUGH I DONT THINK GOD MADE THIS HAPPEN FOR THAT LESSON I DO THINK THERE ARE SOME DEEP ROOTED ISSUES THAT ARE SURFACING THAT MAYBE I DIDNT KNOW WAS BLOCKING MY GROWTH. I AM SO DETERMINED TO WHIP THIS DISABILTIY INTO REMISSION I AM NOT ONE TO SIT AROUND AND WATCH THE WORLD LIVE. I HAVE BEEN PUT ON PAIN MEDS AND SEEING A DOCTOR WHO SPECIALIZES IN PAIN MANAGEMENT FOR THE PHYSICAL AND EMOTIONAL PART, I ALSO HAVE PHYSICAL THERAPY AND OCUPATIONAL THERAPY, I THINK WITH ALL OF THIS I WILL FIND A WAY TO BE COMFORTABLE AND STRONG ENOUGH TO CONTINUE BECOMING A SUCCESSFUL PERSON. MAYBE I HAVE BEEN LOOKING AT THE WORD SUCCESSFUL IN THE WRONG TEXT MAYBE ITS MY INNER STRENGHT AND MY EXTREME COMPASSION FOR PEOPLE IS WHAT WILL LEAD ME IN A MORE REWARDING DIRECTION. I WOULD LOVE TO SEEK OUT HELP FROM MY BEAUTIFUL FRIENDS WHO HAVE KNOWLEDGE IN THE MORE HOLISTIC APPROACH. I AM A BELIEVER IN THE POWER OF POSITIVE THINKING, AND ALSO THINK LEARNING HOW TO CALM MY ANXIETY AND LEARN HOW TO NOT BE SO HARD ON MY SELF MAYBE THROUGH YOGA OR ANTHING ELSE THAT I MIGHT BE INTRODUCED TO. AND OF COURSE MY ENTRENUER SPIRIT WILL ALWAYS BE ALIVE AND THINKING, SO IM EXCITED TO BEING INTRODUCED TO OILS, AROMATHERAPY, ETC. ILL TELL YOU SOMETHING NATURAL THAT CAN RELIEVE THE REDNESS AND SWELLING WOULD BE WONDERFUL. OHH AND THE POWER OF MASSAGE WHEN YOUR BODY FEELS LIKE ITS BEEN HIT BY A CAR, MASSAGE SEEMS WONDERFUL, AND SOMETHING THAT I AM EXCITED TO GET. I PRAY FOR MORE POSITIVE DAYS LIKE TODAY, AND I PRAY FOR ALL THE OTHER PEOPLE GOING THROUGH THE SAME, MAY THEY ALL SEE BRIGHTER DAYS.